I like Sunflowers almost As much as Daisies… it’s like SUNSHINE

So, I’m finally getting to my awards. Working on one at a time. There are a lot, so bare with me. I’m putting off catching up on my readings for a bit, by starting on these.

First up is…..

SUNSHINE AWARD!  brought to me by Shaun over at Looking for a reason

How did they know I love Gerber Daisies?

How did they know I love Gerber Daisies?

The rules for the Sunshine Award are as follows:
1) Post the Sunshine Award logo.
2) Accept the nomination and link back to the nominator.
3) Answer the questions.
4) Nominate ten other blogs and inform them of the nomination.

Ok, posted the rules, and linked back to Shaun, so good for that. now to the questions:

My Favorite Colour: Green
My Favorite Animal: Dog
My Favorite Number: Any palindrome numbers… Go ahead.. I know you want to Google it
My Favorite Non-Alcoholic Beverage: besides good olde H2O, I’d say it’s a toss up between Mt. Dew and Dr. Pepper
My Favorite Alcoholic Beverage: Beer.. preferably IPAs and Lagers
Facebook or Twitter: Neither
My Passions: Um.. being me.. it’s a whole mess of things, which is too much to describe but adds up to being who I am.
Giving or Receiving Gifts: I’m always giving, I don’t know how to receive
Favorite City: London was awesome!
Favorite TV Shows: Oh.. Um.. FIREFLY… or.. BSG…

And my Victims! The fun part…

So it says 10.. Hmm.

1. Combat Babe
2. AliceAtWonderland
3. Revis
4. TwinDaddy
5. DoggyStyle
6. MerBear
7. Melanie
8. Brit
9. Goldie Fishy
10. Stephanie

And there you guys go! I did it! I did one out of like the 13 or so sitting in a folder waiting to for me to send out! Don’t worry, they’ll be combined into one post per award.. No! Not like that.. Don’t panic, yet! One post per type of award. I only received one of this one, therefore just one link back.. Duh. And you were panicking.


I was so excited today. I get home, and on my messages it said I reached 200 followers. I was so excited and happy. WooHoo, party time! Then the disappointment struck. I couldn’t celebrate, not really, that 200th follower, happened to be a spammer/bot. I was such a sad pony and panda then.


An Angel Became a Devil

So I’ve decided to try my hand at more poetry, this time with the help of TwinDaddy over at STUPHBLOG.

Please, let me know what you think. I’m nervous on this one…


An Angel Became a Devil

Today an angel became a devil
His halo inverted
His sparkling morality
Completely perverted

He reached out to me
Held me with his stare
Wrapped me in his words
Believing he was rare

His skin turned to ash
His voice was grating
His eyes pitch black
His lies were baiting

His touch, once so sweet
Began to maim
Trailing his finger against my skin
Left a line of scars and shame

Where he touched
Pain erupted
Slowly but surely
I was being corrupted

Where did the love go
From what started with a simple kiss
He drove the knife in
And with a grin, gave it a twist

Weekly Soundtrack 5/20-5/26

Yes, I’m a day late and a dollar short, but aren’t I ever that way? Anyways, yesterday I had to play nice and be around family that I wish I didn’t have to be. It’s like a competition to see who can 1+ everyone else, show who is better than everyone else, and I’m surprised they were not whipping out their sausages and measuring. Seriously. It was about half a step from that happening.

But I’m back, and here I am to share my songs for the week with you. Let me preface this by saying, I had a fuster cluck of a week and wish to god I could go back and erase it all. I really do. I do not wish my week upon anyone.. well maybe Fred. He can have it. For the most part, not only was I sick and feeling god awful, heart was broken. It happens. Need to move on. I will eventually.









Ok, I think that’s enough for you tonight. I need to get some for next week after all.

Weekly Soundtrack 5/13-5/19

And here we go again on this road, going down my week in a list of songs. Like a composer for you show, I dropped them all on this list…

Ok, that didn’t go so well… I was planning to make it so much better, but yeah… FAIL.


So then, let’s just pretend that this never happened and I’ll just start with my music. I recommend getting your memory wiped…This is not the post you are looking for.

Ok, these are just songs that popped into my head, not to do with this week.



3. MELANIE!!! This one’s for you.







News flash!

So it has come to my attention that there is a leprechaun hiding among us! Can you believe it? Somewhere this bastage is hiding with his pot-o-gold. But where is he? Who could it be?

Should you happen to obtain any information on the whereabouts of this devilish bastage send them this way. We need to out him and steal his gold! Who knows, he could be magically delicious as well. Bonus!



So after having my MRI rescheduled, I finally had it on Thursday.  Friday morning I received the call from my doctor. All clear. Whew. Wait though! I still have my headaches. Why? Why must I be tortured by these?  They asked me about the systems I still have, and the pain level.

It hurts this bad!

It hurts this bad!

“Well I’ve been around a 7 most times. Then I have these moments of burning and then icy numbness. It’s on one side mainly around my temple, then it travels to the back, but every once in a while, it travels to the other side.”

“So you’re not feeling any better?”

Did they not just get what I said?

“No, I’m not feeling better. It’s been worse since you gave me the steroids.”

“So I think we need to try something new …(you think?)…let’s try a neurologist, I now think you have what’s called trigeminal neuralgia …(uh um yeah what she said)… so you’re going to have to get some tests done from a neurologist, but in the mean time, let’s try you on a new medication.  It helps with migraines and seizures…(Seizures!?)… and it also helps trigeminal neuralgia. ”

“Are there side effects?”

“Well yes. I wanted to talk to you about them. You can have blurry vision, drowsiness, and rashes.”

Ok that’s not too bad.

Then I picked up the medication.  I was pulled aside. Big green sticker on my package to say I needed counseling.  Ok, this is new. The pharmacist comes over to tell me that my depression medication and this new one could have a bad interaction. Hmm. It can intensify the effects I am already getting from Prozac. Then when I get home, I’m reading the extra sheet they printed out and gave me.


Ok, now I don’t want to take this medication.

This medication can cause rare and serious skin conditions that can lead to death.
This medication can cause rare and serious blood problems that can lead to death.
This medication can cause suicidal thoughts. (Again DEATH! )

Are they trying to kill me? Are they trying to say something?



I’m suppose to take 200mg of this stuff a day, thankfully, the doctor told me I can take just one of those nasty chewable tablets a day if I want. Um, Yeah! I don’t need to increase the issues I’m taking anti depressants for. I don’t need to increase my depression, anxiety, insomnia, irritability, panic attacks, and the like. So I’m taking one a day, well night, about 2 hours before bed. Why? Because the first one I took last night knocked me out forever (though about the first good night sleep I’ve had in a while) and left me a bit tired and groggy all day.

Time to get use to a new medication. Time to be sleepy for awhile. Time to make an appointment with another doctor.