How have you seen me?

This is a rather short post today. I feel the urge to write, but only a little is in my head today.

I was teasing someone the other day that I would have to write their eulogy, and it actually triggered something in my head. If something was to happen to me, would I be remembered, or forgotten? Have I been a blip on anyone’s radars? How is it that they’ll remember me if they do in fact remember me.

Will it be remembered as witty, charismatic, sweet, cheeky, or will it be my weaknesses, the depression, the events, the sadness.Β  Will you have known me as an artist, the creative type, or will it be my half empty outlook that occasionally comes my way? Am I weak, or am I strong?

I know people will see me differently depending on how I was interacting in their lives.Β  I could be the vindictive ex, or the one that got away. What about the class clown, or the geeky outsider? Yes, I’ve been them all, but how will you see me.

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More importantly, I think I just want to say:

Won’t you come see about me?
I’ll be alone, dancing you know it baby

Tell me your troubles and doubts
Giving me everything inside and out and
Love’s strange so real in the dark
Think of the tender things that we were working on

Slow change may pull us apart
When the light gets into your heart, baby

Don’t You Forget About Me
Don’t Don’t Don’t Don’t
Don’t You Forget About Me

Will you stand above me?
Look my way, never love me
Rain keeps falling, rain keeps falling
Down, down, down

Will you recognize me?
Call my name or walk on by
Rain keeps falling, rain keeps falling
Down, down, down, down

Hey, hey, hey, hey
Ohhhh…..

Don’t you try to pretend
It’s my feeling we’ll win in the end
I won’t harm you or touch your defenses
Vanity and security

Don’t you forget about me
I’ll be alone, dancing you know it baby
Going to take you apart
I’ll put us back together at heart, baby

Don’t You Forget About Me
Don’t Don’t Don’t Don’t
Don’t You Forget About Me

As you walk on by
Will you call my name?
As you walk on by
Will you call my name?
When you walk away

Or will you walk away?
Will you walk on by?
Come on – call my name
Will you all my name?

I say :
La la la…

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24 thoughts on “How have you seen me?

  1. πŸ™‚ – kind, a bit crazy (but the good kind of crazy – not the psycho scary kind), strong and brave… (I know you don’t feel it but you really are) oh and you have good taste in music!!

  2. Dearest Alice, we’ve technically never met, but I would remember you as a funny, exuberant, yet sad person. That of course is because of the things you’ve experience, but I hope to see you in the near future overcome those things.

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  4. I too have wondered this.. what kind of mark have I made on the world? On the people in my world? I think I may not want to know, some of the things others have to say.. but I also think that there are kind words floating around about me as well. I enjoy reading your posts, long or short, you write very well. I have not met you, but from what I read of you and of others words to you, I’m sure i would enjoy knowing you. ~ Jen

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